Winning By Losing


How do you know when you’ve won?

In sports, it’s easy. The final buzzer sounds, and you check the scoreboard. Arguments can be won in the courtroom based upon the ruling of a jury. A promotion at your job might even be won by your performance.

But how about in life and death? Can you “win” at life?

I’m not suggesting that life is a game, but I do get the sense that many of us believe it is. We are told to “play with the cards you are dealt” and a variety of other idioms exposing this undertow of philosophy. Since this perspective prevails, we must have some sort of definition for what constitutes winning.

It’s an interesting activity to consider what one would need to happen or accomplish to consider life a “win.” I imagine having healthy, enjoyable relationships with our loved ones would be on the list. Being financially literate and creating generational wealth may also cross our minds. Perhaps there’s even a list we have started that literally states all the things we want to do before we die. The thought of a life with many of those things left unchecked may bring on a panicky depression, motivating us to “live life to the fullest” while we still can. A life with unfulfilled aspirations is not typically chalked up as a win.

This question has been on my mind as I’ve been challenged by what has recently transpired in Afghanistan. I think about what certain members of the Taliban consider a winning life. Or, how members of Al-Qaeda or ISIS would answer such a question. These three groups can undoubtedly differ in their belief systems and complexity is richly interwoven within their history, but it’s well documented that many would declare their life a “win” if it brings many other lives to an end.

This horrific reality has once again been pushed to our frontal lobe. While one celebrates victory by blasting an AK-47 into the sky, another mourns as they hide for their lives. There is no simple way to neatly package such a situation and I don’t intend to speak on behalf of anyone. I simply look to call to attention that “winning at life” certainly isn’t relative like we often claim it to be.

If winning isn’t relative in sports, court, or the workplace, then why would it be in matters of life and death? It’s here that I am comforted in the renewing power of God’s word to reveal to us the truth of this world. He shows us that life is won not through acquiring, building, or even enjoying. Rather, it is won by losing.

God’s son, Jesus, tells us that the one who loses his life for Christ’s sake will find it. He tells us that the greatest among men is actually the one who serves the most. He showed us that a winning life doesn’t look like we often think. Moreover, Jesus didn’t live as some detached religious figure who merely espoused things He didn’t actually do. His words always point to His own actions.

It was the worst moment in human history that God chose to also be the greatest. As the Roman soldiers laughingly mocked Him, the religious leaders looked on in pleasure as Jesus’ righteous blood flowed onto the  Golgotha soil.

Jesus let out His last breath, and victory was far from His disciples’ minds. They scattered, afraid for their lives. Yet it was in this moment, that their victory – and the victory of all those who place their belief and hope in Jesus – was secured. Jesus rose from the dead three days later in triumphal procession.

Many more have made the decision to follow Jesus and suffer with their Lord. Yet they not only consider their persecution a win, but actually rejoice that it is happening to them and pray for the souls of those who plan their slaughter. Their eternal hope in Christ’s atoning work for their sin is a victory no bullet can rip through, or knife can decapitate.

For my brothers, sisters, and I, we know our lives have already been won for us. The closest thing to winning in this life we now know, is if in our death, many are pointed to the one who also offers them true victory. Especially those who commit such acts and think they’re pleasing God.

In the coming weeks, as reports continue to surface, my hope is that you reflect upon your own understanding of a winning life and then run to the only One who offers true victory.

 

Scripture References:

Luke 9:24 – Lose your life for Christ’s sake and find it.

Luke 22:26 – The greatest is the one who serves.

Philippians 3:8-10 – All is counted loss compared to knowing Christ Jesus

Acts 5:41 – Rejoicing to be counted worthy of suffering for Christ

Matthew 5:44 – Pray for those who persecute you

Father, Meet Me There


Father, meet me there

In the winds of confusion

Where my mind flaps like a flag

And I’m slow to dismiss delusions

Father, meet me there

On the seas of sorrow

As I float on painful depths

And dread tomorrow

Father, meet me there

By the fountain of joy

Where gratitude comes easy

And the days bright as koi

Father, meet me there

Atop the steps of success

Where pride subtly lurks

And I puff out my chest

Father, meet me there

In the waiting room of desire

When my wants seem like needs

And I’m consumed to acquire

Father, meet me there

At the crossroads of decision

For several paths beckon

And clouded is my vision

Father, meet me there

Behind the bars of rebellion

Discipline me in love

And show me the cell I’m in

Father, meet me there

In the ruins of apathy

Built by the self-consumed

Point me back to your majesty

Father, meet me there

In every situation

For every duration

At every location

Father, meet me there

For you are here

I know you’re near

Yet you’re already there

Thank you Father, for meeting me there.

You Held Me


A Poem Inspired By Psalm 107 & Psalm 139

Ponder the loving deeds of LORD

Let the redeemed of the LORD say so

When I tossed and turned

And my stomach churned

And my skin burned

You held me

As my mind spun

And I wanted to run

Through the promise of your Son

You held me

Many times, I’ve failed

And in my nerves bailed

But while I felt jailed

You held me

When I cried out to you

Doing all I know to do

And though I wasn’t in a pew

You held me

When I couldn’t eat

And my spirit felt beat

When I envied the weak

You held me

When lies seemed true

Causing me to question what I knew

The Spirit of truth came through

You held me

You teach me through these things

You are my reason to sing

My life and death are yours, my King

You held me

Darkness is not dark to you

Sorrow, nothing you haven’t already been through

My Savior, the King of the Jews

You held me

No time and no place

Will I ever be without your grace

Despite my stumbling in the race

You held me

Before I existed

Your love was consistent

Though I had no subsistence

You held me

You have answered once again

My Savior, My God, My Friend

My soul sings like a wren

You held me

Another battle, another victory

A sound defeat of the devil’s trickery

This servant of the LORD cries out with glee

You held me

Though other battles will come

I smile knowing the war is won

And again I’ll say as your son

You held me

Ponder the loving deeds of the LORD

Let the redeemed of the LORD say so

The Hope of Glory


”The Hope of Glory” is a realistic fiction short story inspired by the biblical account of Jesus Christ’s birth and subsequent ministry. The story is not intended to be viewed as scripture or an attempt to “fill in gaps.” Rather it is a fiction narrative prayerfully created to celebrate the real birth of Christ and God’s faithfulness to deliver His perfect promises. Namely, salvation for sinners through faith in Jesus Christ.

Broken up into 5 short “chapters,” each chapter begins with a verse that corresponds to the over arching theme of the story. I hope the story creates in you a desire to open the scriptures for yourself and behold the mystery of God revealed in Jesus Christ.

 Merry Christmas!

Chapter 1: Colossians 1:25-26

Moonlight coated the back wall as the curtain danced in the wind. Chaff from the nearby wheat field blew in through the doorway. Keinan continued spinning the wheel with his right foot while gently pressing his index finger against the clay. He squinted examining every inch of the jar as it circulated on the upper disk. Just as he began to slowly lift his hands from the finished product, a second large gust threw open the curtain and toppled the jar onto the dusty floor below.

“All that for nothing,” Keinan muttered as he slammed his fist against the table sending tools flying. He stared at the deformed masterpiece. His tears were quickly dried by the crisp night air. Keinan stepped down from his stool, shuffled over to the basin, and scrubbed his hands clean as he stared out through the window across the dark valley.

Since his father passed, Keinan tried day after day to master the same craft and keep the family business going. But inexperience and the painful nostalgia that hit him every time he placed his sandal on the same wheel his father had hundreds of times before left him better suited to tread the clay, not fashion it. Failing to produce and sell pottery left him no choice but to forfeit portions of his inheritance to the Romans to keep up with tax obligations. He had lost almost everything and was still drowning in debt.

Keinan grabbed his torch from its holder on the wall and exited the pottery house, tossing the front curtain aside and slamming it back against the other side of the door as he stepped outside. The torch flame flickered as he made his way along the trail past the barren wheat fields. As his sandals pounded the earth below, Keinan clenched his free hand tighter and tighter considering what his life had become.

As a boy, Keinan excelled in his study of the Torah. Memorizing the scrolls came easily to young Keinan who was highly regarded by the rabbis for his mental depository of Pentateuchal instruction. He particularly enjoyed the account of Abraham’s improbable fatherhood at 100 years old with his barren wife Sarai. Such an event inspired Keinan to worship the God of his ancestors. The one for whom nothing was too hard.

Keinan smirked, shook his head, and let out a sarcastic chuckle. Accounts that once quickened the young boy’s faith in Jehovah were now no more than a series of tales good only for putting young children to sleep. The scrolls once so clear to Keinan now seemed like a mystery after years of loss, pain, and dashed hopes.

Ahead of Keinan was a trail junction leading him back to Emmaus or the main route heading towards Jerusalem. As he neared the junction, a faint noise broke the silence of the valley.

“pit-pat-pit-pat”

Keinan’s head spun and his pupils swelled. His nerves tingled as the glow of a torch rapidly approached.

Chapter 2: Jeremiah 33:3

The dark silhouette advanced towards him as Keinan’s mind raced. Who would be trailing him at such an hour? Surely it wasn’t a sojourner traveling into town. The city gate was shut hours ago. Perhaps it was a Roman Centurion tracking him down by order of Quaestor Drusus for his delinquent taxes. Or worse. It was that demon possessed child everyone in the Decapolis was talking about. The one who lived among the tombs in Gadara and spent his days cutting himself with stones and screaming out at all hours. Keinan shivered considering these possibilities.

Keinan puckered his lips and blew out his torch. Just as he was about to take off running, a raspy voice cried out, “Shalom!”

Keinan looked back. The orange torch glimmer revealed an elderly man in a tattered tunic. He lumbered along the dusty trail as his torch bobbed up and down with his arms.

“Shalom shalom!” the man exclaimed as he gasped for oxygen. “I’m not the athlete I used to be,” he laughed.

“Shalom,” Keinan responded. “Why were you running towards me?”

“Better question. Why did you blow out your torch?” the man piped back. “Bet you thought I was old Drusus ready to shake you down for those delinquent taxes!” He chuckled as Keinan looked on quizzically.

“…How did you kn-“

Cutting Keinan off the man asked, “What? Know about the taxes?” “Everyone owes Rome something!” Keinan smirked. His muscles loosened and his pupils shrunk.

“What is your name, son?” asked the man.

“I am Keinan, son of Shahar.”

The man tilted his head and stared deeply into Keinan’s sunken eyes asking, “And Keinan, son of Shahar, what has you trouncing your way around the countryside in the middle of the night?”

Keinan looked down and pushed some dirt around with the top edge of his sandal. “Just trying to figure some things out,” Keinan said.

The man smiled and looked down. “Well, the answer isn’t going to be in that dirt, son.”

Keinan gave a half grin. “Yeah, I guess not. I’m not really sure there is an answer.”

The man looked at Keinan and smiled. After a long pause, he began to speak. “Do you remember in the days before the exile when Nebuchadnezzar had battering rams surrounding Jerusalem and God told Jeremiah to buy his cousin’s land? Ah, what was his name…”

“Hanamel,” Keinan spoke as he lifted his head.

“Yes! Very good son, Hanamel. It made little sense for Jeremiah to follow the law and be Hanamel’s kinsman-redeemer since the land he purchased was inevitably going to be in Babylon’s possession.”

The man’s pitch climbed. “Or do you remember when Habakkuk cried out to the Lord only to find out that Adonai was raising up the Chaldeans against Judah?”

Keinan released a long sigh and looked off into the distance. “I don’t mean to be rude bu-“

The man could hardly contain his excitement. “Or the time when God told Abram that he would be the father of many nations and changed his name to Abraham even though he was an old man, like me, with a wife who couldn’t give birth?”

Keinan locked eyes with the man.

“Sure, I remember. I remember my abba reading these stories to me as a child and believing them. I remember thinking these scrolls all made sense. I remember trying to love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, and all my might. But it’s become increasingly clear to me that the feeling isn’t mutual. Since you bring up the prophet Jeremiah, explain to me why God says, ‘I will cause a righteous Branch to spring up for David, and he shall execute justice and righteousness in the land.’ Do you see justice here? Do you see righteousness here? Do you see a king from David ruling over the land? All I see is Herod and the continued oppression of our people – excuse me, God’s chosen people. All I see is God not keeping his promises. So, excuse me old man, but the last thing I need is a Torah lesson in the middle of the night from a total stranger.”

Keinan took off into the darkness before the man could fit in another word. Sunrise was mere hours away. He had to get home before the Romans arrived.

Chapter 3: Luke 19:10

Do you remember?”

The man’s voice echoed in the corridors of Keinan’s mind. His words seemed so random, so purposeless. Yet, Keinan couldn’t help but wonder if they were profound.

“Why was he out there?” Keinan thought. “What did he mean?”

As he conversed with himself, Keinan’s trembling shook the leather haversack in his left hand as he threw various items in it with his right. He knew the Praetor would make an example out of him to the rest of the province if caught. He had to flee. Jerusalem and the surrounding towns, like Emmaus, were crawling with centurions.

Keenan placed his hands on the door and paused. He looked back one last time as tears filled his eyes. He spotted the clay water basin the family had used for feet washing. His tears of sorrow turned to joy as he remembered the time his father helped him make it as a gift for Keinan’s mother a year before she got sick. He missed his parents deeply. They would not be happy with what he was about to do, but Keinan felt he had no other choice.

After a deep breath, Keinan once again faced the door. He pushed gently, peering out the small opening to see if any of Drusus’ men were in the marketplace. Scanning the crowd, he smirked when he didn’t notice the glistening metal of a Roman galea. Keinan tip-toed out and then, finding a gap in the flow of traffic, swiftly joined the crowd.

Keeping a low profile, Keinan’s eyes darted around looking for centurions as he walked. If spotted, his intentions would be no mystery.

As Keinan approached the countryside, the herd of people on the path dwindled. He stared down at his sandals, pressing on towards the southern gate of Emmaus. He silently rejoiced as the prospect of escaping town seemed closer to reality with each step. Suddenly, his jubilation turned to horror. Five fingers dug into Keinan’s right shoulder and before he could blink, Keinan’s back clapped against the parched soil.

Chapter 4: Romans 6:23

“Drusus’ quarters are north, not south Jew,” the centurion barked out.

A crowd gathered at the sound of shouting as the soldier bloodied his fist on Keinan’s face.

“You really thought you could skip town on us?” asked a second centurion as he delivered blow after blow to Keinan’s side.

“Your miserable life isn’t even worth enough to cover your debt, but it will have to suffice.”

Keinan’s tears raced droplets of his blood to the ground as he cried out in agony. “Please – just a little more time! I will get it to you!”

“You’re out of time,” shouted the first centurion as he picked Keinan up by the tunic. “You’re Rome’s now.”

The silence of the crowd was suddenly shattered. A voice piped up, “Aren’t we all already? Let the boy go.”

The two centurions surveyed the group of onlookers. As their eyes turned, the heads of those in the crowd dropped. Nobody would have dared speak to a group of centurions in such a way. Yet one man kept his gaze on the soldiers as he made his way to the front of the group.

“Are you out of your mind old man?’ the centurion asked. “One swing from Rufus here would send you to the tomb.” The two soldiers chuckled.

“You say that like it’s a bad thing,” the old man laughed. “Will I have to pay Rome property taxes for my grave site?” The crowd snickered as the centurion released his grip and Keinan collapsed on the ground.

Rufus shoved the old man from the back as his fellow officer grabbed him by the neck, raising him into the air. “Your wish is my command you dog,” muttered the centurion as he reached for his dagger.

“It would cause quite an uprising, Emilian…” mumbled Rufus.

Emilian looked over at Rufus, then glared back at the old man. He tossed the man to the ground and turned around once again facing Keinan.

A rough twine pulled tight against his wrists as he moaned. Just as Keinan was about to let out his final plea for mercy, the old man coughed up some dust and asked, “How much?”

Emilian stood back up and slowly raised his head to the sky. Turning aside to Rufus, he murmured, “you sure an uprising wouldn’t be worth it?” Then the two centurions pivoted and stared at the old man still laying on the ground.

“How much does the boy owe?” said the old man as he continued to clear his throat.

The centurions looked at one another and then back at the man. “What’s it matter to you?” Emilian responded.

“I would like to pay his debt.”

Keinan’s vision came back into focus as he stared across the dirt at the onlooker’s sandals.

“You what?” asked Emilian.

“I will pay this man’s debt.”

Rufus scoffed. “I don’t think you can afford it, Jew. He owes Drusus 10,000 denarii.”

The crowd turned their focus to the man with mouths agape.

He smiled. “That’s it?”

Rufus’ head swiveled back to Emilian who continued to stare at the man.

Emilian opened his mouth to speak but before he could utter a word the old man said, “the house right there,” as he pointed. “There’s a large cedar chest right when you walk in. Take it.”

The crowd gasped. Keinan propped himself up off the ground and turned towards them.

Emilian looked at Rufus who tilted his head and rose his eyebrows.

“If it’s not all there, you both will be food for the birds,” said Emilian. As the two soldiers walked over to the house, Keinan’s line of sight was no longer blocked. His eyes met the old man’s. Keinan’s jaw dropped. The old man smiled.

“You didn’t let me finish what I had to say last night. Maybe now you will.”

Keinan was speechless. His battered face gazed in shock as the crowd murmured.

Everyone’s faces turned as the soldiers reapproached. Emilian looked first at the old man then at Keinan. His Adam’s apple bounced as he swallowed before speaking. “Get out of here, Jew. Guess it’s your lucky day.”

The crowd cheered and jeered at the centurions as they walked past. Keinan slowly propelled himself up with his arms as his knees shook.

His swollen face quivered as he continued to stare at the man who still sat on the ground.

“Who are you?”

Chapter 5: Colossians 1:27

The crowd began to dissipate as Keinan reached out his shaky hand to the old man. The old man squeezed Keinan’s hand and rose to his feet quickly brushing off his tunic with his calloused hands.

“Walk with me.” Keinan nodded as the unlikely pair set out on the northern trail.

“Who are you?” Keinan asked again.

“It doesn’t matter who I am,” said the old man bluntly. “You will understand why soon.”

Keinan wagged his head. “Wh-what do you mean?”

“Do you remember what I said last night?” the man asked.

“When you rattled off those Torah stories?” Keinan replied.

The man laughed. “Yes, exactly!”

Keinan spilled his thoughts. “I used to feel so clear about what the Torah was about, but as I’ve gotten older, it all just seems like a bunch of stories somebody made up to describe our history. God makes all these promises but never seems to keep them. I apologize that I ran off, but if you’ve been through what I have, you’d know where I’m coming from.”

“So, you don’t believe them?” the man asked.

“Well, no.” Keinan responded. “It all seems like a big mystery with no real answers. It can teach good lessons to kids and is well-crafted literature, but it’s nothing to base one’s life on as so many of our people do. Look at all the empty promises!”

“Hmm, I see,” the man responded. “What is it that you base your life on?”

Keinan looked down. “I – uh,” Keinan paused. “I don’t know, just trying to stay alive, I guess.”

The man patted Keinan on the back. “God’s word was once a mystery to me.”

Keinan looked at the man and then back at the trail. “And it is no longer?”

The man lifted his twinkling eyes to the sunset sky. “No.”

Keinan stayed quite for a moment. “Well, what happened?” he finally asked.

“The stories I told you about last night, from Jeremiah, Habakkuk, and of course Abraham. Have you ever thought that God’s word may have been a mystery to them?” The old man’s words were as gentle as they were stern.

Keinan looked at the man and then back at the path in front of him.

“They were a mystery to them,” the old man softly asserted.

“Because what God promised hadn’t happened yet.” Keinan’s eyes opened wide as he reasoned this to himself.

The man rapidly nodded his head. “And what ultimately ended up happening – even if they didn’t happen to see it in their lifetime?”

Keinan stopped walking and turned towards the man. “Exactly what Jehovah said.”

The man raised his feeble arms into the air and smiled ear to ear. “We are Abraham’s descendants, aren’t we? We are walking through Judah without any Babylonian control, right? God delivered on those promises and those mysteries have been revealed!”

Keinan smiled as he nodded.

The man laughed and posed another question. “And if that’s all made up, then why would the author make us constantly look so bad? After all, don’t most fiction works showcase the character’s strength and minimize their weaknesses? The Torah certainly doesn’t do that for us!” The two bellowed in laughter together.

Regaining his composure, the man asked, “As you spoke last night, you brought up a bigger mystery than you realize, son.” Keinan’s cheek muscles rested.

“You brought up the Branch of David. The King who will rule with justice and righteousness.”

Keinan’s face fell serious as he bobbed his head up and down.

“You were right about Herod. He certainly isn’t from David and he most definitely doesn’t reign executing justice and righteousness. We all know that.”

Keinan dropped his head and wagged it back and forth.

“Our people cry to be free from the Romans, but do we ever cry to be free from our sins?”

Keinan looked at the man and questioned him, “free from our sins?”

“Yes, son. Remember Jeremiah’s words regarding the new covenant the Messiah will bring? Jehovah said, ‘For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.’”

Keinan’s eyes shifted back to the trail in front of him as a soft wind blew against his confused face.

“Your debt. The one I paid the Romans. The same is true of our sin’s before Yahweh. A debt so large, none of us, not even King David could pay. Nobody keeps the law perfectly! And as the law says, the payment for its violation is death – right? Yahweh graciously provides us the death of lambs, bulls, and goats so we can still live. But blood must be shed, just like that first Passover in Egypt.”

Keinan turned back to the old man. “Well, if I can’t pay it, then who does?”

The old man let out a joyous shout, “Hallelujah!” “My son, you ask the best question of all – the most majestic mystery in all of Torah.” The old man looked up and said softly, “He does.”

“Who does?” Keinan questioned.

“Isaiah’s words, son! The suffering servant. He who was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him. Yahweh’s ultimate promise, the one the Lord laid on the iniquities of us all, even gentiles!”

“Even gentiles??” Keinan retorted. “Who is he?”

“The hope of glory, my boy! The Son of God!” exclaimed the man as he gazed back into the dusk sky.

Keinan looked at the man and followed his eyes into the sky. “I don’t understand.”

“Keinan, son of Shahar,” the man replied. “I have waited all my life for the consolation of Israel. Yesterday, before we chatted on the trail, I held Him in my hands. They were in Jerusalem, at the temple. I held the Savior, the delivered promise, in my hands. God’s offer of salvation, the suffering servant. The grand mystery of our Torah has been revealed. He is here, Immanuel!”

Keinan’s head spun. “What does this mean?”

“Remember the exodus of our people from Egypt and the first Passover? Those families that applied the blood of the sacrificial lamb to their doorposts were spared the death of their first born. This baby will be the sacrificial lamb for all who receive Him by faith! We will be made right with God, as it was in the beginning. The wrath for our iniquities will be dealt with once and for all. No longer will we need to constantly offer lambs, bulls, and goats.”

So many years of pain and sorrow seemed to not matter in this moment to Keinan. Something was taking place in him that he had never experienced. He didn’t understand all that was being said but he had the sense that it carried far more significance than he could ever realize. He knew true joy as he considered the words of the man and the faithfulness of God despite his personal faithlessness. God had kept His promises all along and this baby was the ultimate delivery.

The man smiled. “Soon, you will meet Him too.” He placed his hand on Keinan’s shoulder as the two walked past another trail junction, making their way in the direction of the signpost labeled “NAZARETH.”

“Lord, now you are letting your servant depart in peace, according to your word; for my eyes have seen your salvation that you have prepared in the presence of all peoples, a light for revelation to the Gentiles, and for glory to your people Israel.”

– Luke 2:29-32

Because I Said So


No child enjoys hearing these four words. They form a sentence that sends the son or daughter spiraling into a flurry of frustration, no matter the situation.

“Because I said so.”

I remember hearing these words and hating them. They made it impossible to get what I wanted. My plans didn’t prevail because a higher authority said otherwise. If I went ahead and ignored those four powerful words, I knew I could expect some sort of painful discipline.

It’s no mystery that when we’re told we can’t do something, that becomes the thing we want to do the most. But to be told we can’t do something because a certain someone said so? That’s where things get ugly.

We don’t like that because it shifts our perceived authority over our lives to someone else. It makes us feel enslaved and oppressed. We rebel and throw tantrums to try and take back some semblance of control, no matter how self-destructive.

At 25 years old, I seldom hear those words anymore but am still tempted to throw those same tantrums. It seems our world has a great way of mutely cutting us off with a wagging finger saying, “Because I said so.” How we long for the day when we can freely declare “Because I said so” and go about our business with no outside interference. Some believe that they have a self-governing life where all their decisions are made with those four simple words.

It shouldn’t take long, however, to see that we are not in control. One untimely diagnosis, one stolen credit card, one little spark catching your house on fire can all derail life as we know it. The reality of our powerlessness really tends to sneak up on us in the catastrophes. It shouldn’t have to, though.

Consider the fact that you must pay taxes. If you don’t, you’ll be thrown in prison. Does anyone really want to pay taxes? Or, take your emotions for example. Can you control how you feel? Look at something as simple as breathing. Is there a fresh air supply for your every moment because you said there would be?

What we say often doesn’t go. Even if it did, I’m not so sure we’d love the destination. I find that my way is often a way to more losses than wins.

This is why I’ve been becoming more and more okay with the truth that virtually nothing is “because I, Brian Hilton, said so.” Of course, I’m not saying that we have no ability to make decisions, but I am saying that there is one who can say those four words with no room for anyone’s rebuttal.

A lot of people don’t like that idea, which is what turns people off to God. Many have an understanding of God that is similar to their view of tyrannical dictatorships. He’s restrictive, harsh and doesn’t serve our best interests.

But if I may ask respectfully, what is the source of that understanding? Because when I open up the Bible, I see that God saves me from myself. When I look at my life, I see that I have no good thing apart from Him. When I look at my heart, I see that the only reason I can have any hope or joy at all in this life is because He says so.

Consider Romans 8:31-32 which says,

“…If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave Him up for us all – how will he not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things?”

When we know God and walk with Him, we can’t lose. It is that fear of loss or being kept from something good that fuels our rebellion of His authority. But shown here, God’s absolute authority over all things is our best-case scenario.

However, it’s clarified that this is true “if God is for us.” This naturally begs the question – how do we get God to be for us? The answer to that is found in verse 32 as the author, Paul the Apostle, notes that God did not “spare his own Son but gave Him up for us all.” Why and how would God give up His Son?

The “why” is found many places throughout scripture, but pretty profoundly in the oft-quoted John 3:16 which reads,

For God so loved the world that He gave His One and only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

It’s because God loved the world that he gave His only Son. A decision prompted by love for us and the desire for our ultimate good, not some sort of power trip.

The “how” of God’s giving up of His son is well described earlier in Romans. Consider Romans 3:25-26:

“God presented Him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in His blood. He did this to demonstrate His justice because in His forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished – He did it to demonstrate His justice at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.”

So, God’s love for the world motivated him to offer His son, Jesus, as a “sacrifice of atonement” which in turn “justifies…through faith,” sinners. Every one of us falls in this “sinner” category. Evidence of sin can be found in our natural position against God. Again, we want to be the ones to say, “because I said so.”

Thankfully, we are not in authority. God is. We deserve to be judged for our sins, but through faith in Jesus Christ, we have an atonement because God said and did so. We simply must believe in Jesus and turn away from our plans, to His.

This is where I’ve found a new love for this phrase. No longer does it matter what others say about us, or even what we say about ourselves. Remember, if God is for us, who can be against us? What He says about us is what goes – and He says I’m forgiven in Jesus through faith. He says I’m His child. He says I have all that I need in Him.

While our feelings might not always grasp this due to the inevitable hardships we will still face in this life, I’m thankful for the firm foundation that what God says goes. This brings freedom, security, and true comfort that isn’t shaken by circumstance.

There’s nothing that can rival the joy I partake in considering a clamoring voice listing all my inadequacies, flaws, past, present and future sins questioning God on how I could be saved. In a calm yet firm voice, God says through Jesus –

“Because I said so.”

 

Scripture References:

Isaiah 50:8-9 – “…Behold the LORD God helps me; who will declare me guilty”

Romans 8:31-39 – “…if God is for us, who can be against us?”

1 Corinthians 4:3-4 – “…I don’t even judge myself…it is the LORD who judges me…”

Daniel 3:6 – “…we have no need to answer you in this matter…”

1 John 4:4 – “He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world…”

Romans 8:28 – “…all things work together for good for those who are called…”

Psalm 118:6 – “The LORD is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?”

Revelation 12:10-11 – “…the accuser of the brethren has been thrown down…”

Communication Factor


 

The past two years I was blessed with the opportunity to work on the grounds crew of a golf club who hire migrant workers all the way from Mexico to come up and work every March through November.  Hailing from Vera Cruz, Mexico, a place riddled by drug cartels, most of these men speak very little to no English which presents some interesting challenges during the course of the work day.  However, all these guys are hilarious and awesome people, so the miscommunication was usually very entertaining for both English and Spanish speakers alike.  Despite the language barrier between the Americans, Mexicans, and single Jamaican on the crew (shout out to Gopie) everything that needed to be done, always was finished by the end of the day.  There were some days where I was absolutely blown away by the efficiency that was displayed, with such an inefficient method. 

 

                One day this past fall, I was working side by side with a man from Mexico named Samuel.  Samuel is a small, skinny man who sports a grey goatee off of his wrinkly face.  Smoking about a pack of cigarettes a day while being in his sixties having done manual labor his entire life, the man musters up the strength each day to weather the elements and earn money for his family back home.  Serious respect.  Anyway, we got to talking on this blustery fall day.  I asked “You excited to go back Mexico and see familia?”  Wow.  Who would have known something as simple as that would spark such a grammatically incorrect yet involved conversation?  Samuel started telling me about his daughters, and how one of his daughters was a widow because her husband was murdered by the cartels.  She had 3 kids to raise with no job and no husband to provide.  Samuel knowing my minimal grasp on the Spanish language simply said it was “No Bueno”.  He got that across to me amidst the massive wall separating us conversationally, so I decided to tell him about something’s that were going on in my life.  I realized how I hadn’t had a good conversation like this with someone who even spoke ENGLISH in a while!  Everything was straightforward, to the point and perhaps most important, we both really had to think about what the other was saying in order to understand.  Later on in the day, Samuel, out of the blue came up to me and said “We no good understand each other for Tower of Babel!”  I just started laughing hysterically, partially because of how funny he sounded saying it (a common occurrence for us to laugh at the language barrier), and because of how blown away I was!  We then started talking about various Old Testament occurrences including The Tower of Babel, Daniel in the Lion’s Den, The Battle of Jericho, and also talked about Paul from the New Testament a little.  It then hit me like a bag of bricks, there still is a universal language…The Gospel!!

 

In Genesis chapter 11, the first verse states that at the current time, there was only one language.  Then people travelling from east find this big plain in the land of Shinar (most likely modern day Iraq) and decide to build a gigantic tower “with a top that reaches the heavens so we can make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the whole earth”. (v.4). God decides to punish them for their pride and protect them from dangerous unification by “confusing” their language.  This was the origin of miscommunication between Samuel and I, and millions of others!

 

If God eliminated having only one language, but wants us to “go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of Father and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit (Matt.28:19), then how do we do so when the other countries speak a different language then we do?  The Gospel isn’t bound down by words, its living.  The Holy Spirit lives in us and communicates to others through our actions.  Even if there is a physical language barrier, there will never been a spiritual language barrier between us.  The Gospel is for everyone!  Not just English speaking Americans, or Spanish speaking Mexicans.  The consistency of our sinful hearts needing to be saved that will exist in all of us until we accept Jesus Christ into our lives by faith transcends words.  Which is why through hand motions, broken words, and tears there is amazing ministry going on all over the world, because it is Spirit led, sincere, and truly from the heart.

 

Jesus says we should let our Yes be Yes and our No be No in Matthew 5:37.  How often do we communicate like Jesus though?  He was always truthful, honest and loving with his words.  Mark 1 and 2 provide a good lesson on how to communicate with one another. 

 

  • Mark 1:15…short, honest, and sincere.

 

“The time has come,” he said.  “The kingdom of God is near.  Repent and believe the good news!”

 

  • Mark 2:17…truthful, and patient with the wishy washy Pharisees after they questioned him about eating with “sinners” and tax collectors.

 

“It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.  I have not come to call the righteous, but

 

sinners.”

 

                Unlike us, he had every right to be harsh with these people and to flip things around and judge them as we often do with people who do things contrary to what we think they should do.  Jesus was without sin though, and we are overflowing with it.  It puts things in perspective to know that we never have the right to judge anyone yet we always do, and he had every right to, and was calm, patient and slow to anger.  Another way we need a savior.

 

The latter half of Matthew 5:37 says that “anything beyond this (simple, truthful answers) comes from the evil one”.  Sadly, rarely are people upfront about things.  Or if they are, it’s out of bitterness and sin, not truth.  Instead, they choose to people please and aim to earn the acceptance of man rather than of their Savior.  Ironically, people pleasing really is only done with self-glorification in mind…we only do it to make things easier on ourselves, rather than thinking about the others best interests.  Our yes’s are not yes’s and no’s are not no’s, and this is a very devastating place to be for everyone, nobody wins! 

 

We can be strong though, when our confidence isn’t in compliments from others or approval of man but resting solely in God and his word.  It’s an amazing freedom, and serves as an opportunity to build better more meaningful relationships with people when we are bold in Christ and learn to communicate as he would.  He’ll provide amazing ways, just like he did with Samuel and I, but most importantly, he’ll teach you how to better communicate with him!  He’s the best person to talk with around.